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Before I give my body, I must give my thoughts, my mind, my dreams. And you weren’t having any of those.

Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

What do you do when you feel yourself falling for someone who can never be yours? When their smile brings light to the darkest of rooms, and their laugh is the water your garden needed to grow. They plague your dreams both night and day and as you turn in the shower you could have sworn you felt their fingers brush along your shoulder. I feel myself growing delirious and these toxins are costing me time and energy. But I'm terminally optimistic, crushed under the weight of my own hope.


You need to tell this person about your feelings. Or try to get close to them. If they are not taken by someone, you can freely do anything. Well, not anything, but you can brings your feelings to the surface without it causing any harm. I think if you get it out, and you hear what this person has to say, you will have the answer right there. It’s really true when people say there is nothing wrong with trying. Because at least you can say that you tried. At least you can say that you put it out there. You don’t know, this person might feel the same. This person may be afraid to tell you how they feel. I think knowing the truth of how they feel about you will help you either go forth, or move on. Instead of wallowing within this thought that you are not good enough, because you are good enough. You just have to put some confidence within your words and put those words forward so they will at least know how you feel, so they can take what they will from it. Staying silent will only drive you to insanity.